Universal Story Book
I have long-ago learned the great value in sharing “my” stories— experiences from my own life—and the greater understanding I have gleaned from them. In doing so, I’m able to provide a first-hand reference for others, revealing that we are never alone with our issues.
Of course, other’s stories are no more or less valuable than mine. My story, his or her story, their story—we are all reflections of each other—at some point, the boundaries between stories dissolve, leaving one big story book, one I call the Universal Story Book.
This Universal Storybook is a veritable wealth of information: deep, deep reflections of how we keep ourselves small and disconnected, routes taken to bring ourselves home to a reliable sense of self, stories of rich inner self-discovery—mirrors offering the deepest of reflections, a 2020 view.
These stories are offered as tools—as catalysts even—to gain understanding, to step beyond self-limitation…and live from the heart of our own brilliance. My story, his story, her story…read, reflect and grow! The Time Is Now!!!
I have long dreamt of being a great freedom fighter and bringing greatness to mankind and being recognized for it. I wanted people to see my accomplishments. I was given many opportunities to live that dream. But below the surface I carried a belief of being unworthy that my anxiety and insecurity would always prevail and sabotage the experience.
I’m on a journey in Japan. If you’d told me 10 years ago that this is where I’d be, I wouldn’t have believed it. It’s been a long row to hoe, but I wouldn’t change a thing.
A decade ago was the height of my “pantyhose & briefcase days”. Working as a sales manager for a large Manhattan company, happily married, with great friends, and earning great money, everything was seemingly “perfect”. Why then did I feel such discontent?
As we participants sat in class and listened to the message and the understanding of what Love is, I was eager to receive as much as possible. This drive to know that I know propels me beyond my present level of intuition. I realize I am out past the ledge. I have to sit suspended in mid-air and wait for it to all catch up to me.
The mountain that asks me to climb “her” is a hearty climb - about six miles up and six miles down or as they say here in Japan, 9 or 10 kilometers one way. My thoughts about climbing this majestic, snow-capped mountain are conflicted. A part of me anticipates the adventure and relishes in the sense of accomplishment I will have after I have done it. Another part fears I may not get back down before dark and that I will spend the night alone and lost on the mountain. Still another part fears failure – it says I lack the stamina to get to the top.
I have killed.
I have been killed.
Many times.
Neither one felt right.
Must we go down the same road again?
There is a fire within me,
a blazing fire.
In the last decade or so "my" life has been all about healing - you name it, I've probably tried it. More recently I've been working with Ia, who has helped me understand what true healing is. THANK YOU.
My life has revolved around feeling sorry for those in suffering, which is why I became a healer. I can help others. I can save them. I will take their burden for them. I recently had a session in which I saw a lifetime where at birth my mother was unable to care for me. Hence, she gave me to the Celestine Monks to take care of me. The head monk became a parent figure and raised me knowing I was very gifted.
The Big Voice of Resistance
In a class titled “Resistance and Responsibility,” the instructor asked the participants to give voice to their resistance. After concentrating to see my resistance, this is what emerged.
The doctor’s words, “It is likely pancreatitis and that usually means hospital time” hit me hard. Given that many businesses were closing at noon and schools had already closed, my thoughts swirled like the snow outside as I made plans to spend some time with friends who lived near the main road. I knew I needed to wait until morning when the doc would have the blood test results to confirm his diagnosis.
